just one thing...

sometimes when life is crumbling around you and you're lost, you just need ONE thing to keep you holding on. it could be one thing you know you do well. a person that means the world to you. one reason for being or even getting up in the morning. thankfully, people who don't even know what wonderful thing they were doing for me when they put their faith in me, will reap what they have sown. it is important for me to show the people who touch my life for the better even in the most seemingly insignificant ways to know how much i cherish them.

depression is real and people hurt. some wounds are new and others are old and buried but still festering poisoning you slowly. no matter how far down you think you have buried it or gotten "over it", if you never truly dealt with it...guess what? it is STILL THERE!

that is what i am dealing with now...crimes against me as a very young child that left an indelible blueprint upon my life that i am working hard to change. it is important for me to succeed because i want to stop the pattern and break the cycle for this sort of crime in my family and in society at large. children are innocent and precious. they need to be treated as such. our children are our MOST precious resource. ALL CHILDREN!!! children need love and discipline and love and more LOVE!

one never knows where a bit of joy might come from. i relish these serendipitous instances because i need them! we ALL need them. these days with reality being so rough, we seek ways to escape for a bit at a time to take a break. even that isn't enough sometimes. my good friends Lolly & Larry let me join their family for a hour of sledding and it was the most fun i had in weeks! i'm sure to them it didn't seem like a big deal but for me it was mammoth. i'm lonely and miss my child and the bit of family i have even though they give new meaning to dysfunctional. it felt great to feel part of a group of loving, happy folks. i needed it so much. my thanks seem so insignificant for what i received. i love them all for being so open and including me when i was in need. not to mention Lolly's great effort to snap photos of our crazy adventure. priceless to me! that brief interlude will resonate with me for years to come.

Love and live like it is your last moment here.